Through email with a friend I was able to open to my big feelings after getting the first signs of my partner's serious illness. This was sent June 9, 2016.
Dearest Jenna,I'm sad and terrified. I also know great love and support. I don't want him to leave us anytime soon. I need and want him here with us. I intentionally release control and appreciate what I have here in this moment. I'm so exhausted from several days and nights with very little sleep. So now I'll pray and meditate and send my partner as much love and light as I can without depleting myself further. I accept my role as rock and navigator for our family, growing love and strength together. Thank you for asking how I am. I am so grateful for you. Big blessings.Xoxoxo!Jennifer